On being asked why I am losing weight....

Let me start by saying I have been overweight since 2nd grade. there have been 2 times in my lkfe that I have been a "normal weight", but both times I did it for someone else, not me. Needless to say, the weight came back with a vengance.
My motivaton this time was very different. Back in October I had some potentailly serious medical issues that resulted me having to go through things I should have had to to make sure everything was ok. That lead to me quitting all carbonated soda and such on 10/9. I also joined a gym that day, but didn't really start going yet. After that, I was having isuse at work, and it was partly due to a poor self image.To be blunt I felt oafish and underestimated becuase of my appearance. I know full well that such opinions, onve formed, are difficult if not impossible to overcome. Also, once
you get "used" to them, you tend to allow youself to fall into them, even though you hate it. I need to chnage something, becuase if I didn't chnage my self image and my outer image, I felt I would be trapped in that stereootype as long as I worked there. After Thanksgiving, I started dressing in what I felt was my best look, shirt and tie. It has always been what I am most confortable in, oddly enough. When I saw myself in that, it wasn't enough. It wasn't just how I was dressing, its was how I looked and how I felt. Feeling the pressure of the extra weight always pressing on you when you sit, stand or even lay down. what finally broke me was my kids. I am watching them grown and run and looking to me like I can do anything. The truth was that I was so severly limited by my weight it would only be a matter of time they would see me for that. I started seeing a time that they would be embarassed in having the "fat Dad". I would rather embarrass them by what I do, rather than how I look. I realized that day (12/5) that if I started now, they would not rememeber me like this. That suddenly became very important to me. But it wasn't for them, it was for me. I need to be healthy and active so I can lead the life I want, be who I know I can be. I want to dispel the sterotypes I have been backed into, by my own inaction. Without the weight loss, I would not have the confidence to do it. We can lie to ourselves and say what others think about us doesnt matter, but teh cold truth is that it does. I can see how people looked at me whenI was almost 400 pounds, and how they treated me. I didn't and still don't like it. With all that motivation coming from inside me, I snapped and I was done. That day I started this, that day I knelt and pray for the strength, suppport, and guidance to do everythign that I was going to take upon myself. I found a trainer that I trust and can work with, I told my wife what was about to change and that I needed her support. She has whole heartedly supported me in this. Partly, because my weight was becoming an issue for her as well.
The motivation that will get anyone to change is what they demand of themselves. I stopped demanding the best of myself, and where I landed was evidence of that. I also realize that the weight loss is only part of the equation. And I have spent the last several weeks working on getting the rest of the thing I need in line. I now have a plan, and I am going to make it happen.
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